the bottom line is that it’s not about the fact that you can’t stop thinking about him. it’s not about the fact that you’re in love with him, that he’s everything you could ever want, that you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you would do anything for him. have done everything for him. it’s not about the fact that through years and years and other girls and other boys and good memories and bad memories and a complete lack of any progress at all, he’s still the one you would pick over anyone in this world. it’s not about all that. it’s about you, choosing to walk away anyway. to walk away from the constant, all-pervading feeling that you are not good enough for him - you know, the one that makes you want to sit in a corner and bang your head against the closet door for five hours. it’s about you, knowing that real love is not like this, that if was meant to happen by now it would have happened by now. it’s about you, knowing that if it’s meant to happen it will happen, but for now you are just going to live your life. you are going to stop fantasizing that you’ll run into him everywhere, and you are going to say whatever you want around him and not worry about what he thinks. you are going to step away, even though your heart is just about bursting with all the love he doesn’t want from you, you are going to step away. even if you cry yourself to sleep every night. i mean it. you will probably cry yourself to sleep every night. but you love him, and you would do anything for him, and your arms are open wide. it’s his that are shut tight, and there’s nothing you can do to change that. there are some people that you are going to need to learn to love from afar. love them, still. don’t stop loving them. but just know that they are not, NOT the one who is going to give you what you need right now. and who knows, maybe one day soon they’ll realize what you’ve known all along - that you are the same person as he is. but until then, you are going to be happy. you are going to love him and you are going to be happy.